Excruciating Pain: My Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.
The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches often begin with severe pain around a single eye that lasts for several hours.
About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.
What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing records suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.
It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.
National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some individuals.
But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a